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Ain’t Nobody Got Time For That

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My main goal for 2014 is to focus on myself mentally, physically, spiritually, and financially. 2013 was a year of change, good, bad, and neutral. I kind of fell off the path I was headed on in 2012, the path I needed and wanted to continue along. I fell back into certain bad habits such as negative thinking, self-doubt, and self-dislike. I lost some of my self-esteem that I had gained in 2012 and the years past. At the same time, I made a major move, nearly 11hours from home into my own little apartment with my best girl, a new city, a [sorta] new job, new people, new responsibilities. That move brought me a brand new start. Not knowing anybody helped me free my mind somewhat from expectations and social pressures. Not knowing my way around gave me increased confidence in my ability to learn directions and new things in general. Having Jayde all to myself and vice versa gave me focus toward her needs and our relationship. Having the apartment to myself all day and every night helped me realize a little more what my ideal balance of social and alone time is (i.e. I function pretty darn well when I’m alone 98% of the time). I became calmer, not as apt to extreme mood swings, and settled into the role of ‘adult’ that required me to pay bills, take care of household responsibilities, and take complete control of myself (i.e. nobody telling me to get up, brush the dogs, clean my room, etc. etc.)

Goals for 2014 include saving $600 [if not more]; try meditation; practice Radical Honesty; clean up my diet by reducing sugar intake, drinking more water, and eating more fruits and veggies; and practicing daily gratitude. Some of these might be monthly projects, but I am not limiting them to 30 days. I want to bring more awareness into my life in these areas. This blog will be geared toward my process of bettering myself.

Peace & Pawprints

 

 

2014

My name is Heather and I’m a terrible blogger.

This year I’m going to attempt post-a-day 2014, just as I did in 2012.

2013 was quite the year. Lessons, growth, change, discovery. Graduation from college with my bachelor’s degree. Getting into my first choice criminology grad program. Moving out of and away, far away, from my parents’ home and my home town. Those were the broad marking points of 2013. Many little moments in and of each.

I don’t fully have my plans for 2014 written out yet. Hopefully these will come within the week. Expect pictures, quotes, progress updates, and hopefully a bit more focus as the weeks go by.

Peace & Pawprints 

Now taking donations of winning lottery tickets

At this very moment I am sitting on my couch in my living room (it feels so nice to say that!) with a bottle of h2o beside me and a good book. My stomach is full of the (failed) fried chicken, green beans, and sweet potato fries I made for dinner tonight. My sweatpants are cozy and comfortable. Behind me an incoming storm blows ominous breaths through my window, creating a melody of Mother Nature’s mood & manmade window blinds. A flash flood warning just beeped on my phone. Good thing I have nowhere to be the rest of tonight or tomorrow except my cozy apartment (I guess I *should* go to the bank tomorrow but…. we’ll see :P)

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I finally went [back] to work yesterday. The restaurant that is my home yet is so unfamiliar to me right now. The job duties were fine; I could reel off the menu items, procedures, sidework and whathaveyou without blinking an eye. My new co-workers, on the other hand, will take a while to get used to. Right now I do not associate them with the restaurant that is so familiar. I kept looking for all my old employees, as if I was back home. This restaurant is much busier than my old one though and I can tell that I have some learning to do about endurance. Same goes for Jayde while I am working later hours.

I absolutely love coming home to Jayde. She usually greets me with a yawn & stretch followed by a body wiggle and circle tail wags. She rubs against me like a cat, back and forth, and happily leaps into my arms if I invite her up. Her bright eyes stare up at me, waiting for me to feed her, take her out, pick up a toy, grab the leash. She holds no resentment for being in her kennel for such a long period of time. How many humans can you say that about? 🙂

Today I woke up to Jayde’s very faint whine. According to her, I had slept in much too long. It was 8am, which is around the normal time we’ve been getting out of bed since we moved (2 whole weeks already! wow!). After feeding her breakfast and getting dressed, we went outside for the morning potty break (Jayde’s, not mine ;P). I brought her chuck-it and my book, in case she wanted to play. The morning was absolutely gorgeous and we both enjoyed soaking up the cool morning air.

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After we came back in, I started two loads of laundry then set to work cleaning. Someone once told me that when I got my own place I would take pride in keeping it clean and smelling good. This said person also told me that cleaning would help me relax. Now, while I do take pride in keeping my apartment clean, I can’t find the enjoyment in cleaning. I wish it would do itself. But it is satisfying knowing that once I sweep up all the hair, dirt, sand, and unknown particles in my kitchen it is no longer there. Same goes for vacuuming. One dog sure does drag in a ton of sand and dirt. Seeing the vacuum full of all the dirty stuff amazes me that it came out of my carpet in a week. Too bad the scrubbing part doesn’t have a satisfying after effect. xD

I finished one book today, and started another. Then Jayde and I went for a walk. With the squirrels we encountered, it was an adventure in itself! One squirrel got up the tree all right, then promptly lost it’s footing and nearly fell on my head. Another squirrel (a black one, something I’d never seen before) boldly came down the tree while we were eight feet away and took off for another tree. Jayde was rarin’ to go. She stalks the trees before we get within a hundred feet of them, just in case there is a squirrel hiding in the upraised roots.

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Later in the afternoon we walked to the office to get our mail. It’s always exciting to get letters and packages. I was excited when my modem came. And my blank checks came today. Anything from the UPS man is exciting I think. xD That being said, you can guess my excitement at seeing a bubble-wrapped package from Amberness in my mail box! What was inside was a plethora of goodies. The fruit snacks, the much needed chocolate bars (eeeeee!), the gum, and the Target bag made me smile. But it was the letter and the gift card that brought tears to my eyes. I’m not sure what I did to deserve such a good friend but today I feel blessed beyond measure. ❤ With her gift I was able to stock up on the necessities of milk, bread, and peanut butter, something I was holding off on doing until I was sure of my incoming money flow. So thank you, Amber, for brightening my day and helping me breath a little easier. 🙂

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I am soaking up the free time I have with Jayde and with my books right now. I’m not sure how much free time I’ll have once class starts and I start working more hours. Jayde and I also visited an agility class which we hope to become involved in once I get the extra money. The people I’ve met so far have been so nice and their methods are exactly what I use, so I am extremely excited about that. I have the urge to get knowledge, share opinions, have long talks about dogs and training and puppies with likeminded folk. I want to meet more people, more dogs.

All in good time, right? All in good time. 🙂

Peace&Pawprints

The Next Big Adventure!

This will probably be the only post you’ll see from me for at least a week. I am getting Internet in my apartment on the 19th.

The past few days have been long, stressful, and tiring!

On Wednesday morning my uncle and my dad brought the u-haul trailer and we loaded ‘er up with a couch, mattresses, a box spring, and lots & lots of boxes, with a few lamps and odd baskets thrown on top. And a broom. That afternoon I went with Ashley to our good ‘ol Starbucks, the place that had been our second home the entire school year and summer. We gave homemade cookies to the baristas that had become like friends and had our last specialty drinks.

At the buttcrack of dawn on Thursday, we loaded up the last few things, I got Jayde settled into her kennel seat, said my extended ‘see ya later’s, and hit the road. The worst part was saying bye to Ashley, and then to Parker. Gosh I’m going to miss that little man so much. 😦 At least I can Facetime and text Ashley though. (She’s off to Nebraska to study forensic science, something she’s very passionate about. So as much as I’m going to miss her, I’m so happy she gets to go to the school of her choice and study what she loves.)

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The ride was riddled with gas and bathroom breaks. We drove straight through Nebraska (I didn’t realize mountain time began in Nebraska!) and then hit Colorado. Okay. When I think of Colorado, I think of mountains (as I’m sure lots of people do, right?). Lots of big, rocky, jagged peaks poking holes through the clouds with earthly tones of red, browns, & greens breaking the blue monotonous sky. Well, my uncle led the way and he took his old trucking route that he knew best. Let’s just say the edges of Colorado make Nebraska & Iowa seem anything BUT flat. We didn’t see mountains until we were actually in the Springs!

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Jayde was absolutely phenomenal the entire way. She slept peacefully in her kennel, got out for all the bathroom breaks and did her thing, then went back to sleeping during the ride. When we finally got there, we found out we couldn’t move in until the next day, Friday. So we spent about an hour and a half searching the town for a restaurant and a motel that would accept dogs. To say it was frustrating after a 9 hour drive is an understatement. We were all tired and worn out from the drive and just wanted to fill our bellies and go to sleep. It’s a huge, busy town with confusing streets (at least to me). When we finally did those things, I did not sleep well at all. Not sure if it was the bed or the whole ordeal (probably both) but I woke up feeling like I had fallen off a mountain in my sleep.

After breakfast – we got up early and our appointment was at 10am but we were ready to go by 9am – Mom and I went to find coffee while Dad and my Uncle Bob went back to the apartment to see if they could start unloading. Mom and I trailed in not long after and went straight to the office to check in and sign the lease. Holy moly I felt like I was signing my life away – which I guess I kind of was. 😛

A nice neighbor helped us take the couch and mattresses up the stairs (well, one went up over the balcony instead of up the stairs :P) and we started getting everything set in place. Boxes upon boxes piled up in my new bedroom. The coffeemaker got settled in its spot on my counter beside the sink in the kitchen. Jayde’s kennel is my end table in the living room. 🙂

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After everything was unloaded and pretty much settled, the u-haul trailer was returned to the company and Uncle Bob & Dad brought lunch back. Uncle Bob left soon after. He’s one of the best men I know and was such a big help on this trip. He towed the trailer and helped pack and unpack. I am so blessed to call him my uncle. ❤

Mom and Dad helped me get everything organized, then we found a bank and got my checking account set up. After that we went shopping for necessities and groceries. (Mom basically led me to have green accents in my apartment, of which I happily complied. xD) They were such a big help and bought everything for me to get me started off right. When I saw that they wouldn’t let me pay for anything, I was so touched. They are so good to me and I’m so thankful to have such wonderful people as my parents.

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I don’t think I’ve ever been as exhausted as I was Friday night. I had stress cramps and didn’t feel good. Honestly, I was dreading Mom and Dad leaving the next day, because then I would be truly alone. I gave them my bed and I slept on the couch.

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Saturday morning we woke up bright and early. The three of us explored town a little bit and found a dog event, which turned out to be an annual event held by the All Breed Rescue & Training group of Colorado Springs. We looked around there for a bit, I signed up for a couple contests with Jayde that were later in the day (with the mindset that that would distract me from being alone), and then we had lunch. After getting back to the apartment, Mom & Dad left. I tried my best not to bawl my eyes out and chase the van down the street. In other words, I tried not to let my fears get the best of me – and I succeeded.

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All my friends and family have been such good support yesterday and today (Sunday). I appreciate every single call and text. ❤ Amberness lifted my spirits by proclaiming that I was now independent and could do whatever I want so why not order pizza and sit in my apartment naked?! While I didn’t take that offer, I do appreciate her wonderful reminder that this is a new beginning of independence that I need to embrace.

And of course, Jayde has been an absolute angel. She’s enjoying the dog park, and is learning the layout of her new apartment and grounds. She’s so well-behaved and has been so calm, taking everything in stride. Even more so than I realized, she is my rock.

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We found a couple awesome public parks to visit and explore. One is the Bear Creek Dog Park and it is the biggest, most beautiful dog park I’ve ever seen. There are so many trails for humans and dogs. Underbrush trails for the dogs to explore, a creek for the dogs to splash around in, some uphill trails to give legs a work out. And it is HUGE.

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I am slowly learning the layout of the town. The streets are much more confusing than my small hometown and the traffic is much busier. With the help of my GPS and my iPhone, I’ve only managed to get lost twice, and that was mostly on purpose because I was exploring some streets. They seem to just randomly change into different streets without notice.

I’m sure I’ll have lots of stories and photos to share later. I need to edit the two sessions I did before I left Sioux City, also. I have lots of good books to read. Before we left, Ashley gave me the Manson book she won from Goodreads. I’m going to read it asap and get it back to her so she can read it. 🙂 Because I have my own apartment now, I have:

  • my own bathroom (no more crowded dresser!)
  • no TV (stupid thing, anyway. I only want to get one to watch movies on.)
  • peace and quiet whenever I feel like it! (reading time!)
  • loud music whenever I feel like it! (with respect to my neighbors of course :P)

I’m trying to stay positive and to look at what I do have. But it is so hard to look at pictures of Parker, Mandy, Buddy, & Secret, and my niece, and my sister, and my parents, and Ashley & Amber, and know that I can’t see them any time I want. 😦 However I know that if I brood on that, I’ll never figure out this whole thing called “independence.” And that is the ultimate goal. ❤

Peace&Pawprints

First Impressions

I’m not new to the blogosphere; I have another blog that has gone stale due to lack of ideas/blogger’s block. So I started this new blog under some sleep-deprived conditions to see if it couldn’t break me out of my blog-funk.

—>>> Moments Of Mezz is my original blog, my first blog, the one that started it all. Check it out if you’d like to get a little bit of history on me, but I’m turning toward this blog as my main one so I probably won’t be posting anything else on that one. It feels like a good time for a fresh start. I will be changing some things on this one as I go. It is still in its beginning stages so I have some pages to add, and I hope to change it up a bit from my old blog.

If you are not a loyal follower someone from Moments of Mezz then here is what you might expect from my blog:

  • Photos, & lots of them. Probably mainly of my awesome dogs and Ashley’s dogs but also a little bit of whatever catches my interest. I enjoy shooting people… and things.
  • Thoughts I have running through my head that day, week, month, whatever. If something sticks with me for a while then I’ll probably write about it at some point – that’s the goal, anyway. Might be thoughts about what’s going on in my own life at the moment or thoughts about some ‘hot’ topic in society at the moment. I want this blog to be less censored than Moments of Mezz also. 🙂
  • Stories & lessons from the pawprints in my life. This is one thing I did not focus on as much as I would have liked in Moments of Mezz. My dogs (particularly my German shepherd girl, Jayde) are a huge part of my life and I’d like to dedicate more time on here for them.
  • My adventures as I enter a scary exciting new chapter of my life.
  • My perspectives on life in general. What I’ve learned, what I’m still learning, and what I’m doing about it all.
  • And whatever else I decide to write about that doesn’t fit into those broad categories.

So go ahead and click the follow button if you’d like. Likes are nice but comments are even better. I enjoy hearing other opinions & thoughts on things.

Peace.